a time to learn.

Throughout the past year of my life (and not even an entire year) I have come to one of the most painful realizations I have ever experienced; people are mean. Even the people you least expect it from. In all honesty, mean is the wimpiest word I can use to describe the hateful and hurtful people in this world, but it’s the best I can do right now.

This may strike you as overwhelmingly negative and depressing, but it’s really all in how you choose look at it. You see, people are mean, yes, but it’s what you choose to do with their meanness that makes YOU the better person. I have seen more hate and experienced more painful and hurtful words in the last 10 months than I have anytime in my 25 years on this earth. However, it’s the fact that I have chosen to NOT act against them that has made me the strongest I have ever felt in my life. It’s empowering.

Learning to deal with the actions/words of others in a mature manner can often take every ounce of strength and sanity you have. It’s in this last year that I have learned that swallowing your pride and anger and not stooping to someone’s level, can help you feel completely invincible. On top of the world. Untouchable. 

I have learned that being positive is the most challenging frame-of-mind to accomplish in the darkness of all that is vile and malicious.

I have learned that forgiveness does have an expiration date and a pain threshold. One person can only take so much verbal, mental, and emotional abuse before they are forced to look after themselves and only themselves.

I have learned that people are not always meant to be in your life forever; regardless of how long they have been a part of it to begin with.

I have learned that even when faced with the most horrendous behavior anyone could imagine, staying true to yourself and your morals will keep you grounded and give you the strength you need to carry on.

I have learned that people will try their absolute hardest to bring you down with them, but it’s how you choose to respond to this that makes you the person you are. 

I have found the strength inside myself and in those around me, to be the best me I can possibly be. And at the end of the day, I know I have done everything in my power to do just that.

I have learned that for every 1 horrible, mean, malicious person, there are 5 amazing and loving people waiting to help pick you back up again. Even when you don’t ask. It is these people that I owe all of my thanks to. These people that have helped hold my hand through the darkest times of my life, and have guided me to see the light. You know who you are. And I am forever grateful to you.

People are defined by the choices that they make. I choose every single day, to just be a GOOD person. What choices are you making? Who do you choose to be?